Still Learning

If nothing else, the past year and a half of being my own boss have been quite the learning experience. And the learning never stops.

The key question is, would I recommend self-employment to others? And what are the most important things to understand about starting a business?

First, the recommendation part. If you want to start your own business for the following reasons, forget it right now!

• Not being "tied down" to a 9-5 job. Sorry, but if you start a business you'll be tied down for 12-15 hours a day. Forget about it if you think your life will be easier just because you are self-employed.
• My chance to do what I "love" full-time. Strike two. Yes, you might get to do what you love for part of each day, but you also have to be an accountant, salesperson, marketing manager, janitor, office manager, etc., whether you like it or not.
• Getting rich quick. Did you know most businesses fail? And that by fail, it means financially bankrupt? Going into business may have a long-range potential for wealth, but almost nobody gets there quickly, but it takes years of hard work, dedication, and resilience.

If you aren't afraid of working hard for long hours, failing over and over again, competing, learning, and living on practically nothing for a couple of years, maybe, if you are lucky, you can succeed in your own business.

Even if you think you meet all of those qualities listed above, there's still the critical decision of what business you want to open. There are lots of businesses that seem successful on the outside, but are barely scraping by because competition kills their profit margins. There are other businesses that seemed like a good idea, but when they built it, nobody came.

But mostly, there are many failed businesses that just didn't have enough up-front capital to allow them to survive until enough customers find them and make them profitable.

I was reading about franchising awhile back, and read a story about Subway restaurants. That's about the most affordable of all the fast-food franchises, so there have been lots of budding entrepreneurs opening a Subway. The majority of Subway stores do generate some level of profit - sounds good, doesn't it?

But the story I was reading revealed the problem. One Subway store with an owner-manager quite often barely clears enough profit to provide a minimal living to that owner-manager. Where the Subway franchisees begin to make a decent profit is through owning several stores, with volume the key to success. But the trap is that a single owner who sank his life savings into that single Subway store gets stuck working long hours in the store for low rewards, and can't afford to do the expansion needed for true success. So he ends up selling the store, usually for less than he has invested, to one of the multi-store franchisees.

Before going into business, you have to have a plan. A written plan that outlines what kind of business you are opening, what makes it unique and therefore attractive to your target market, how it will be financed, how it will be advertised and marketed, and how you will survive during that first year or two when the business is struggling to get itself established.

The holy grail of business is finding that fresh, new, unique concept that nobody else has tried, and opening to find it is wildly popular among the target customer base. Most people can't find it, so the next best thing is to find a need in your community that either is poorly met or not met at all by local businesses, find enough capital to make it successful, and pour everything you have into making it work.

There's so much more I could write, but I've already written so much I risk reader boredom. Besides, I've got work to do.

Hypocrisy

This topic germinated with a book I read this week by Bernard Goldberg, 100 People Who are Screwing Up America. It was meant as a sort of light-hearted book to point out 100 people who he thinks are the major contributors to the coarseness of our society. Many are left-wingers, some are right-wingers, and the rest are just clueless, but all serve to help make his point. In fact, he really never attacked any specific principles held by anybody, but the lowbrow tactics they use to try to gain power or attention.

He has been viciously attacked by a bunch of left-leaning folks who happen to idolize most of the people in his book, none of whom actually bothered to read it. It's kind of amusing to see how foolish they make themselves look by confirming pretty much the entire premise of the book they're trashing so vociferously.

So anyway, it got me thinking about hypocrisy. Who gets called "hypocrite" more than anyone else these days? Yeah, Christians. And if you define hypocrisy as a failure to practice what one preaches, then all Christians are indeed hypocrites. But really that's the point of the Christian faith, in that all fall short and fail. But we recognize and admit our failings and pledge to ourselves to do better.

But where are the most obvious examples of hypocrisy in our culture?

Number one on my list are abortion-rights advocates. They're generally the same people that want to abolish the death penalty and save the animals. The typical PETA member marches one day against farmers raising animals for slaughter, then the next day to protest the Supreme Court nominee who is rumored to think that killing babies isn't a good idea. So let me see if I get this straight - save the whales and mass murderers but kill the babies? Seems the essence of hypocrisy to me.

To extend that discussion, has anybody in that crowd ever considered who's getting abortions? From reports I've seen, the vast majority of abortions are by poor black women. For those who call conservatives "nazis", who are the ones trying their hardest to thin out the population of undesirables through abortion? Isn't the primary justification for abortion to eliminate "unwanted" pregnancies? Wow, just a cursory look at the facts would seem to indicate the real fascists are NOW and NARAL and Planned Parenthood.

Another one I really like are the Hollywood activists. It cracks me up when an environmental activist actor or actress shows off their new hybrid automobile as proof of their sensitivity to the environment, then parks it in their garage between the Rolls and the Maserati. Then they take off to their next movie location in their private jet, which in a single trip burns more oil than all the cars in their garage use all year. Finally, they march against those who want to drill for more oil or build a new power plant, then go home to their mansion that uses 10 times the energy of the average home. Cracks me up.

The campaign last year had a terrific example. John Kerry had just made a speech pandering to the environmentalist left, where he seemed to oppose the evil SUV. A brave reporter later asked him, "Don't you own an SUV yourself?". He said it was his "family's", not his. Hilarious.

The public education advocates are another easy target. They protest loudly against using a voucher system to give people choice to find the best schools for their children, while almost universally send their own children to private schools. The implicit message there is that public schools may be fine for all of you little people out there, but we important people send our kids to private schools.

Then there are the pacifists. Now there are Christian pacifists such as the Amish and Mennonites that see it as a tenet of their faith. They will support no war under any circumstances, and definitely don't care whether it's a Republican or Democrat who leads the country into a war. Their faith says that God will take care of them and there are no justifiable reasons for fighting and killing. Nobody can reasonably accuse them of hypocrisy, at least on this point.

On the other hand, a whole new religion of pacifists has sprung up over the war on terror. These are the ones who didn't have anything to say when Clinton sent troops to Bosnia or blew up the aspirin factory in Sudan (Wow, can you only imagine what would have happened if Bush had made that mistake?). But now with the war on terror, all of a sudden there are all these newly converted pacifists! They say that Bosnia was necessary to stop the brutal genocide of the Serbs, but don't really care that Saddam was killing and torturing as many Iraqi citizens. There are those who say we deserved 9/11, somehow just because we elected Bush our President. Some of them even believe that if we're just nice to them and try to understand their plight, the terrorists will leave us alone.

So I got this mental image of terrorists attacking, say, the Chinese Theatre in Hollywood. A group of actors led by Michael Moore come out of the theatre waving white flags saying, "Don't shoot! We are your friends!". A half-hour later while wiping down his automatic rifle from that day's killing, the leader of the Al Qaida commando unit laughs and shakes his head, saying "Crazy American Infidels".

OK, just one more. All those putting pressure (successfully) on the government to send money to help Africa complain about how America does so little to help the diseased and impoverished there. Have they ever heard of NGO's? That the aid organizations that make the greatest difference for the average impoverished child around the world are Christian missionary organizations? That the majority of funding for those missions comes from people in American churches? That when the government kicks in money, it almost always goes into the pockets and Swiss bank accounts of the dictators who run those countries?

Maybe that last one isn't so much hypocrisy as it is ignorance.

Anyway, some who read this might be offended. OK, fine, be offended if you must, but don't shoot the messenger of truth.

Better All Around

Yesterday I rescheduled my appointment and went home after experiencing waves of nausea and deciding it would be nearly impossible to function. After getting home and taking something to ease the discomfort, I went to bed and fell into a deep sleep that lasted most of the day. Today I feel much better, with only a dull headache and a little fatigue hanging on.

The publication of my letter resulted in some feedback, all positive, from random individuals. There was even a phone call from a local woman who said she wanted to thank me for the letter. That was very nice.

I reluctantly agreed to let Tim go to a concert tomorrow night with some friends. My reservations are mostly based on what I saw at rock concerts back in Ft. Wayne, where I moonlighted as a doorman at the coliseum. Many of the rock concerts there were a bizarre environment full of kids indulging in all manner of drugs and alcohol. The air would be so thick with pot smoke you could barely breathe. One of my unpleasant duties was carrying out those kids who had passed out from either alcohol poisoning or drug overdoses, both of which were frighteningly common.

One memorable example was at either an Ozzie Osbourne or Van Halen concert (they were the two worst events I worked for). I was called into the arena to find a young boy, who couldn't have been any older than 15, lying comatose on the floor covered in his own vomit. I carried him out by myself, as I doubt he weighed much over 100 lbs. Placing him on the gurney and wheeling him to the first aid station, I saw that his breathing was very shallow and his eyes were open but saw nothing. I wondered if he was dying. But when I arrived at the first aid station, the first nurse to examine him assured me he would be alright. They placed him into the next available ambulance for transport to the hospital.

That night there were many kids who went to the hospital. In fact, what I estimated at a half-dozen ambulances were on a continuous rotation between the coliseum and the hospital throughout the concert, transporting unconscious or semi-conscious children for treatment of drug overdoses and alcohol poisoning. I was in my early 20's at the time, but I made a commitment then to never allow my teenage children to attend such concerts.

To this day, I have no desire to attend rock concerts, and can think of very little worse experiences than being crowded into a mass of teens under a choking cloud of marijuana smoke trying to avoid disgusting behaviors and a vomit-covered floor. I sincerely hope the concert Tim is attending does not attract this sort of crowd.

Published

Even though I intended my letter just for the guy who wrote the op/ed in our newspaper, they went ahead and published it anyway (if you want to see the letter, it's a couple of posts back).

I wasn't really going for publication, and am a little apprehensive about everyone in the area seeing the letter. But if you write a letter, I guess it's subject to public domain whether you like it or not.

Yesterday I was feeling very stressed and hopeless, so of course today I feel sick. Funny how that happens. I would have stayed home in bed if I didn't have a meeting later today. If I still feel rotten after that meeting, maybe I'll go home and crash then.

Saw the supreme court nomination announcement last night. The best part is he grew up in Indiana. The fight seems to have already started, and I'm not really going to blog about that because I don't have much to add that everyone else is already saying. Except this one thing - it's all about abortion; if the Dems even suspect he doesn't like Roe v. Wade, they'll stop at nothing to derail his appointment. Very simple, really.

Anger and Frustration

I lost control yesterday.

Even though I consider myself to be one of the most self-controlled people anywhere, a sequence of events yesterday pushed me to the breaking point. I lost it and yelled, or screamed. And I said hurtful things.

Was my anger justified? Yes.

Was my reaction appropriate? No.

Today I remain angry and frustrated about the same things that led to my temporary insanity. But I'm also frustrated with myself for losing control. Screaming at someone is no way to change what they are doing; in fact, it probably is more damaging to any chance of getting your real message across.

There have been times on occasion where I've wanted to escape. To leave. To start over. To abandon this life with all of its problems and pressures and hardships, change my identity, and search for happiness somewhere else. But I know that's just an illusion. My life is what it is, I chose a path a very long time ago and must see it through to the end. The path was the easy one all those years ago, but has led to a place that is dark, disappointing, and nearly hopeless.

When I reach these stages, all I can do is make the best of things by getting up every morning and going to work and fighting my way through. Am I getting bogged down in the negatives and failing to recognize my blessings? Is God punishing me? Are there better days ahead, or am I even capable of making the days ahead better? I fear it's all my fault, that I've created this mess and have to take responsibility for cleaning it up myself.

That's enough of this dreariness. I'll post again when I feel better.

Experiment

We had a nice weekend up north, which was an enjoyable visit with family. We cleaned up part of Dad's basement, found out the wedding date is Oct 30, and finally Tim & Chris spent enough time with some of their cousins to at least get to know them a little. Too bad Nick was impossible to convince to show up; I believe he would have had a good time.

So I had a chance to run a little experiment on the news media. The topic was the flap about Carl Rove. If you don't know who the heck Rove is or what the flap's about, that's OK, because the exercise was much less about the specific issue than about how the news media reports on things.

I was able to catch reports on the topic by each of the major networks (NBC/CBS/ABC), then the report from Fox News. It was amazing. The three major networks basically did the story the same way - offering pretty much no facts, but repeating the allegations and what Democrats were saying about it. And what Democrats were suggesting was that Rove committed treason and should immediately either resign or be fired from his job at the White House.

Then there was Fox News, where they actually dug into the facts of the case. They presented information about what has been publicly released about what has been alleged, what seems to have actually happened, what the parties involved said about it, and where the investigation stands. And the conclusion of anyone seeing the story is nearly opposite of the conclusion one might reach after seeing the version of the story done by the big 3 networks.

So, which manner of reporting is better and shows less bias? That of Fox News, which presented all available facts, or that of ABC/NBC/CBS, which presented a high-level overview of the "charges" followed by what Democrats are saying about it?

If people want to say that Fox News is a right-wing propaganda machine, this particular story would seem to demonstrate the opposite is true. We're getting satellite TV hooked up today, finally, and it will be interesting to perform my experiment on future news stories.

My Letter

Today there was a debate on the editorial page with a local reporter named Jon Clark taking the position that displays of the Ten Commandments should be removed from all public property. He was very anti-Christian in his opinion, with a diatribe against "holier-than-thou" Christians dictating to the rest of the citizens how they should behave.

So, anyway, I was inspired to write the following response, which I emailed to him directly at the newspaper.

Hello Mr. Clark:

Reading your editorial today, I couldn't help but wonder, why so angry? If somewhere in your past you were abused in some way by people you perceived as Christians, please accept my apology on their behalf.

Because there must be something that has so incensed you against religion that your editorial does not mask that antagonism. I sincerely hope that you will come to understand that the Christian faith is not one of lectures and "holier-than-thou put-down"'s, but of love, understanding, and forgiveness.

In the meantime, I respectfully submit the following for your consideration.

1. The Ten Commandments is actually not uniquely Christian, but is core for all of the Judeo-Christian world and even respected by Islam.

I disagree with your point that they have nothing to do with our system of laws, as all of the Commandments have been codified into law by Western Civilization at one time or another. Modern laws represent the logical conclusion that only the admonitions against murder, theft, and lying can or should be objectively enforced.

I also disagree with your apparent contention that we are a secular society, but that our founders had the wisdom to found a country based on Judeo-Christian values that was at the same time tolerant of other faiths and determined not to force anyone to join or support a specific sect.

2. If citizens who subscribe to Eastern religions that do not subscribe to the Ten Commandments feel marginalized by the 230-year practice in America of posting them on public grounds, why not change the debate to whether we should permit them to erect a monument that represents their particular rules for living? Wouldn't an argument based on inclusion be more consistent with religious freedom than your argument of exclusion?

But then, all of the objections I have ever heard regarding public acknowledgement of religion have come from Atheists, and not from members of eastern or other religions.

3. In effect, this ongoing crusade against religion in the courts, particularly Christianity, ignores the true intent of the constitution by attempting to change the concept of "Freedom of Religion" to "Freedom from Religion".

Based on the religious ferver in which the Atheist community rails against all religious expression, I would have to conclude that the objective is to establish Atheism as the official State Religion.

4. There can be no denial of the fact of a direct correlation over the past 30 years between the incremental removal of religious expression from our society and dramatic increases in crime, drugs, violence, STD's, and divorce, as our culture becomes coarser and disdains anyone with the temerity to suggest a return to objective morality.

I for one believe in the concept of freedom of religious expression, and much prefer a society that honors its people's attempts to rise above our baser instincts than today's anything-goes narcissism.

Again, Mr. Clark, I sincerely apologize for whatever offense some in the Christian community may have given you. But please consider whether the greatest good in our society is served by removing God from public discourse.

Sincerely,

etc.

Fair Birthday

Nothing like a birthday to remind me how old I've become. It was OK as birthdays go - for some reason I seem to remember some real stinker birthdays instead of those that were probably pretty good. Must be a character flaw.

Anyway, Chris, being the good sport he always is, agreed to accompany me to the Barth. Co. Fair last night. I've always enjoyed the county fair, based on mostly happy memories of the Elkhart County Fair every year as a child.

Even getting stuck on the Ferris Wheel with my sister once when we were very young doesn't stick in my mind as a particularly bad memory. I just remember being a little scared but trying to comfort her when they tried to restart the ride and it went way too fast. And I remember being very cold as we stayed stuck at the top late into the night.

But for me, just knowing my parents were on the ground waiting for us was comfort enough, and somehow they did finally get the ride functioning well enough to bring us down at least close enough to earth so that someone tall could reach up and pull us down to earth that late summer night.

Fair food, the animals, the exhibits, the midway, the people. All combine to make the county fair fascinating and fun for me. I bought Chris a ticket for the bumper cars and waited while he worked his way through the long line to crash his little car into a bunch of strangers for 3 minutes. I didn't succeed at convincing him to join me on the Tilt-a-Whirl, that awesome ride that's been my favorite since I was about 5 years old. But that's OK.

There was a tractor pull in the grandstand, but Chris and I decided it wasn't worth the admission fee to just go in and watch the competition for a half hour. We probably would have bought tickets if it was Demolition Derby night, though.

I seem to remember that there were more musical performers in the grandstand back in Elkhart County. I know a Fair Board member here and asked him about that once, and he told me that there wasn't any money in bringing in musical acts. Their fees are so high that the fair loses money or barely breaks even on a performance, and the tractor pull and demolition derby are by far the most profitable. Too bad, I'd pay to see a singer or band I like.

A little county fair secret I suppose it's OK to divulge now that it's somthing like 35 years later: One summer at the fair, I think maybe between 7th and 8th grade or maybe between 8th and 9th, I was making my way around the midway with my sisters when I caught sight of an angel. Or at least a female someone approximately my age that just knocked me off my feet.

I did my best to keep her in sight, and even chose amusement rides based on those she boarded with someone I assumed was her sister. If my own sister noticed what I was up to, I can't recall whether she made any comments, but then I was probably so focused on that beautiful creature that I wouldn't have heard.

Of course, consistent with my socially inept character, I was unable to gin up the courage to try to meet this beautiful creature, and went home that night thinking about almost nothing else. I seem to recall finding a way to get to the fair every day that year, where I continued to seek out just one more glimpse of my secret crush, but alas, she was never seen again.

I hadn't thought about that girl in probably close to those 35 years, but whoever she is, she made my summer way back then. And it makes me laugh at myself now to think about that shy kid so many years ago who could find such perfect adoration in an unapproachable little girl.

You know, I always identified with Charlie Brown.

Survey

Today I'm playing with a survey that I'd like one of the big pollsters to use. The answers to these questions would give us a really good idea both of where most people in the country stand, but also just how informed or uninformed on today's issues.

So, here's the survey:

Choose the answer that best describes your opinion on the topic:

1. The Iraq War

1. Was dreamed up by Bush and Cheney simply to make Halliburton rich, and we should get the soldiers out of there immediately and but out of the middle east entirely.
2. Was a mistake based on bad intelligence, and we should withdraw as soon as possible.
3. Was an appropriate response to 9/11, but is being mis-managed. We need to replace Rumsfeld with somebody who can do a better job.
4. Was the right decision and has taken the war to the terrorists. We need to see it through, then go after Syria and Iraq if necessary.

2. The next Supreme Court Nominee

1. Should be bold in helping make rulings that the people want, like protecting and expanding abortion rights and affirmative action and protecting citizens from the fascist policies of the religious right.
2. Should fit the mold of Sandra Day O'Connor, whose moderate rulings came from neither political agenda but from the heart.
3. Should be fairly conservative in protecting constitutional rights and honoring precedent, but should not actively try to overturn the law of the land in Roe v. Wade.
4. Should be a strict constitutionalist who believes in interpreting law only through identifying the intent of the founding fathers. We need enough justices on the court to overturn bad decisions of the past like Roe v. Wade and Scopes and others like them.
   

3. Healthcare

1. Every American should be covered under a National Health Plan now. It's unfair that Insurance Companies, Drug Companies, and HMO's make obscene profits on the backs of sick people.
2. Every Employer should be forced to provide medical benefits to their employees, and the unemployed should be covered by the Government. Price controls should be placed on all medical services and prescription drugs.
3. Keep the system the same, but make it easier for the uninsured to get insurance for a price they can afford.
4. There's nothing wrong with the current system. Just stop giving free healthcare to all the illegal aliens and get people to stop smoking and lose weight, and everything will be fine.

4. Homeland Security

1. Repeal the Patriot Act now! We deserved what we got on 9/11, and if we want to stop the attacks we should get out of the middle east entirely and stop supporting Israel.
2. Keep the Patriot Act but make lots of revisions to protect citizens from unwarranted wiretaps and government meddling. Get out of Iraq and stop agitating Muslims against us. Let the UN take over the peace process in the Middle East.
3. Keep the Patriot Act as-is, but get serious about re-establishing friendships with our allies around the world. Negotiate with anyone willing to help us stop the cycle of violence.
4. Get more aggressive by sealing our borders and enforcing our immigration laws. Round up everyone in the country from terrorist nations who is not a citizen and send them home until the war on terror is over.

5. Gay Marriage

1. Gays should have the same rights as everyone else to marry and receive all the benefits available to married couples. Bigoted churches that refuse to perform marriage ceremonies for gay couples should lose their tax-exempt status and be subject to fines or jail time.
2. Gays should be able to establish domestic partnerships that give them all of the same benefits of marriage without specifically calling it marriage.
3. If gays want to act as if they are married, it's OK with me. Just don't give them the same ability to adopt children, get government survivor benefits, or force the state to sanction it as marriage.
4. There is no reason gays should be married or even get domestic partner benefits. What they do behind closed doors is none of my business, so I resent having their decadent lifestyle forced down my throat everywhere I turn.

6. Church and State

1. Religion has a long history of being the root cause of all evil in the world, from the Inquisition up to today's radical Islamic terrorism. If religion were outlawed, our country and the world would be a better place.
2. Separation of Church and State means that the state should leave religion alone as long as religion leaves the state alone. Let religion stay in the churches, synagogues, and mosques for whoever finds it useful. But keep it out of the public square.
3. We should respect religion as long as it doesn't cross the line into unlawful activity. Let the religious express themselves in public, but do not let public schools or government bodies hold up any one religion over another.
4. America was established as a Christian nation, with tolerance for other religions encoded in the constitution. There is no constitutional restriction on religious expression anywhere, including government, as long as it does not establish a specific state religion or trample an individual's right to another faith.

7. The Environment

1. We must immediately adopt the Kyoto treaty, shut down all of our coal-burning power plants, raise the required mileage standards for vehicles, and replace the internal combustion engine with bicycles and solar/electric power. We also must end logging and confiscate all unpopulated lands as wildlife refuges.
2. We should aggressively move toward alternative fuels like electric and hydrogen for our vehicles, build more mass transit systems, and protect as much of our wilderness as possible.
3. We should continue to incent companies to find alternative clean energy sources and encourage conservation without forcing such a dramatic timetable that it damages our economy.
4. There's nothing wrong with what we're already doing for the environment. Many endangered species are endangered no longer, our lakes and rivers are cleaner than they've been in 100 years, and alternative energy is under development and is already appearing. Let the market take its course.

8. Welfare

1. We must increase benefits and reduce work requirements for single mothers. The government isn't doing enough to make sure poor families have a decent home and enough food.
2. We should target welfare improvements toward the most needy, but combine benefits with programs that help them receive education and training that will help lift them out of poverty.
3. Drugs and crime are the bigger issues that are keeping people poor, plus a minimum wage that hasn't been increased in many years. Raise the minimum wage to something people can actually live on and work hard to help people overcome their drug addictions while taking the criminals off the street.
4. There are more than enough programs in place now. There's something wrong with a system that has people on the public dole better off than hard-working people making close to minimum wage. Continue the "workfare" approach, which has proven hugely successful in getting people off welfare and into the workforce.

9. Social Security

1. Keep the system intact for everyone. If necessary to keep it funded, raise the amount the rich have to pay in and reduce their benefits at retirement.
2. Make some minor "tweaks" but don't do wholesale changes. Raise the annual limit for social security taxes and raise the retirement age, and the system should stay solvent much longer.
3. Stop the government from stealing the surplus from the social security trust fund. Instead, invest that surplus in government-issued interest-bearing securities so it can grow to help offset shortages projected in the future.
4. Gradually change social security into what it was originally sold to America. An individual account for retirement with disability insurance and a death benefit. Gradually transition the program so that every dollar that goes into social security is invested on behalf of every American paying into it, and they can retire on the annuity from the proceeds of their account as well as leave whatever might be left to their survivors at death.

10. Taxes

1. I don't pay enough taxes. Everyone should pay more, especially the rich. We should go back to the days when the marginal rate for earnings over $100K are at 70 or 80 percent.
2. I pay enough taxes. So does everyone who makes in the same range as I do or less. But those in the higher tax brackets should pay more. I'm not sure how much more, but they can afford to contribute a little extra.
3. I pay enough taxes, but there are too many loopholes and the tax code is outrageous. We should simplify the tax code so everyone has to pay their fare share, with no exceptions.
4. I pay too much in taxes. My taxes and everyone else's should be lowered, because that will result in more investment in the economy, which in turn results in more taxable earnings from everyone. Everybody wins when taxes are low.

So, to score yourself, add up the total from your answers, using the number preceding each answer.

If your total score is between 10 and 15, you are an ultra-liberal. You and Karl Marx and Vladimir Lenin would get along famously.

If your total score is between 15 and 25, you are what is now called a moderate liberal. You lean toward a liberal point of view, but not to the extremes of the ultras.

If your total score is between 25 and 35, you are a moderate conservative. You have mostly conservative leanings, but aren't totally sold on 100% free market capitalism and hands-off government.

If your total is above 35, you are a great example of what they call a right-wing conservative. You believe in free markets and capitalism, freedom of religion, personal responsibility, and small government. On the other hand, people in the ultra-liberal category would probably call you a nazi.

What I really wonder is whether after taking the survey, anyone's mind could be changed with some education. Not from an idealogue slanting facts to support their predetermined conclusion, but just education about the facts behind each issue, for example, the historical facts about the minimum wage or the observable effect of government-controlled healthcare or what happened to the education system when the courts said there could be no mention of religion in the public schools.

It could be a fun experiment to run, if only I had the time and resources.

A Day Off

Yesterday I took the day off. Chris and I went to the Indy Zoo, where we had a nice day. If you haven't seen the new Dolphin Dome, it's very impressive. A unique glass underwater dome is in the middle of the main dolphin tank, which gives you a unique vantage point to watch the dolphins almost as if you're underwater with them.

The exhibit is so new, it was pretty obvious that the trainers have a long way to go to match their couterparts at other dolphin exhibitions around the country. Going into the show accustomed to seeing an impressive array of dolphin tricks, it was just a little disappointing for Chris and I to see the trainers work very hard to get a few very basic behaviors from their young sea mammals.

We capped off the day with an IMAX film, the NASCAR 3D. It was an interesting film, but I left wondering why they did it in 3D. The film made real use of the 3D effect a total of 1 time, flinging a tire at the audience after an on-screen crash. I did learn that the racing teams are far from the backwoods 'shiners racing each other on the weekends.

Now that the nice little mini-vacation is over, it's time to get back to the grind. Gotta pay taxes now, which is not the least bit fun.

If you live in Indiana

Just something I thought was funny ...

You Know You're From Indiana When...

You drive for three hours and the scenery outside doesn't change. Not true! There's three feet of snow on the ground and school is still in session. Yeah, this year. Global warming my !@#$ You only go to the mall once a year 'cause it takes too long to get there. What mall? Who goes to malls anymore? While driving all you see is corn. No way, there are soybeans too! People still have Christmas decorations up at Easter. Not this people. You start saying to yourself "More than corn in Indiana my butt." guilty. Anyone with a cell phone looks out of place. That's changing fast. Walking through Wal-Mart with two carts full of kids is normal. Why shure it is Anyone with a tan is rich. fer shure The hip hang-out place is McDonald's. Yeah, ask Nick There really is more than corn in Indiana. There’s soybeans, too. Hey, that's what I said! When you plan an orgy and a Euchre game breaks out. that's just disgusting. A restaurant has an invisible wall in the non-smoking section and you believe it works. Yeah, the smokers do believe it works. Speeding consists of 2 miles over the speed limit. Maybe 3 You think you don't have to use a turn signal on your car because you don't use it on your tractor. Yup You build your dream house on a cornfield, and you considered it posh. Ouch, that's hitting close to home You warsh your clothes and you think George Warshington was the first president. So what's your point? You're proud to be called a Hoosier, even if you don't know what one is. Darn right You have no problem spelling or pronouncing "Terre Haute" Who would? Detassling was your first job. Bailing hay, your second. Woulda' been, but I've got bad hay fever. You can stack hay, swim in the pond to clean off, and then have the strength to play a couple of games of hoops all in the same day. Doesn't everybody? You say things like "catty-wumpus" and "kitty-corner". Let's not go overboard You own a dirtbike or a ATV. No, but I want one You live in a city ... and there's a cornfield in your backyard. So what's your point? High school basketball game draws a bigger crowd on the weekend nights than movie theaters. Used to, not anymore. So sad. See previous post. You can see at least 2 basketball hoops from your yard. Unless your neighbor's too far away to see You can name every one of Bob Knight's "exploits" over the last few years. Can't everybody? You shop at Marsh. That was before Wal-Mart Supercenters Damon Bailey was your childhood hero. Nope, he wasn't born yet when I was a child The biggest question of your youth was "IU or Purdue?" What other question is there? Indianapolis is the "big city". Yeah, or maybe Cinci Louavul if you want to leave the state "Getting caught by a train" is a legitimate excuse for being late to school. It shoulda been People at your high school chewed tobacco. Yeah, so? Everyone knows who the town cop is, where he lives, and whether he is at home or on duty. Reminds me I should check that out for E-Town, beyond my neighbor You actually know what the CART vs IRL debate is about and have taken a side. Sure, and it's IRL To you, a raccoon is simply a "coon". Yep. Ever been Coon Huntin? The vehicle of choice in your area is not a car, but a pickup. Nothin like a good Chevy Pickup (But I had a Dodge) Someone you know is BIG John Mellencamp fan. Well Duhh You've been to the Covered Bridge Festival. Almost went once. Great festival from what I understand. To you, a tenderloin is not an expensive cut of beef, but a big, salty, breaded piece of pork served on a bun with pickles. And about a half-dozen eateries around here claim to have the best in the state. They are good! You call a green bell pepper a "mango". Huh? Sometimes, you call the toilet the "commode" or the "stool". Both perfectly acceptable. In the fall, one of your favorite pranks was corning cars. I can't say I ever did it, but had some friends who did You know what FFA and 4H stand for. Doesn't everybody? You know what chip-and-seal is, and your high school was located on just such a road. Of course, and no, my HS was in town You go the county fair every night of it's week-long duration. I would if I could get anybody to go with me. It's next week, what do you say? You can say "French Lick" without laughing out loud. What's so funny? Did you know they're getting a casino there? There's actually a college near you named "Ball State." Yeah, and I graduated from there. Wanna make something of it? The last "g" is silent in any word ending in "ing." Unless we're trying to impress somebody from out of town You think the state Bird is Larry. No, actually I know this one - it's the Cardinal! You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Indiana. Yup

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What's Wrong with my Favorite Sport

Growing up a Hoosier, how could I help but make basketball my favorite sport? From the time I was about 2, trying over and over again to hoist the little orange toy plastic basketball up to the full-size rim at the playground, I have loved the feeling of getting that ball through the hoop and hearing the little rip sound as it brushed the net.

But how my beloved sport has fallen. And I think you need not look any further than the NBA to see the fruit of a series of stupid changes in the development of the sport.

In the NBA this year, there were a number of rosters that carried not a single white or even hispanic player. But who were the stars of the NBA this year? Foreign players. The league MVP was an awesome white point guard named Steve Nash. He's from Canada. The champion Spurs had as their star players Tim Duncan (Virgin Islands), Tony Parker (France), and Manu Genobili (Argentina). They beat a Pistons team that didn't have foreign starters, and also had zero non-blacks on their roster.

When's the last time the USA Men's Basketball team won the Gold Medal in the Olympic Games? I'd have to look it up, because it's been awhile. The NBA players came to believe that if they just showed up, they would win. What they discovered was that a well organized group of fundamentally sound players playing as a team will beat a disfunctional group of superstars with their super egos every time.

Why isn't the NBA more racially and ethnically diverse? Why are the NBA teams increasingly going outside the country for their players? Where have all the Larry Birds, Bob Cousys, Pistol Petes, George Mikans, Rick Barrys, Jerry Wests, John Stocktons gone? What happened to solid fundamental basketball?

The entire development system for basketball in the United States is broken, and nobody but me seems to recognize the fact. I believe it starts at the elementary school level and gets worse through high school and college.

In about the fourth grade, kids start playing basketball in recreation leagues. That's probably the best part of the program, but only gets worse from there. By the 5th or 6th grade, the best players in the age group are selected for their school teams. And those "best" players happen to be the ones who are most coordinated and advanced at things like ball handling and shooting, not those who are tall and awkward, or are developing physically at a different pace.

By the time kids reach the 7th grade, most of them have already given up basketball. Sure, a few keep the dream alive by playing in recreation or intramural leagues, but most kids choose another sport. Once again, the 7th grade coaches choose the boys that can help their team win right now, and those are almost always the shorter and more coordinated. Then in 8th grade, a kid would have to show skills well beyond those of the legacy team members to get a chance to break into competitive basketball. Sadly, before they are freshmen in High School, most kids are already washed up when it comes to basketball.

Then there's High School. Years ago I taught in a school that had a mixed black and white population. The basketball team was made up entirely of blacks. A major source of anger for the white students, one I heard from many of them directly, was that the unwritten rule at that school said, "If you're white, don't bother to try out for basketball".

As an outside observer here, I see the local high school unable to compete in their league with the players that made the team back in the seventh grade. Nobody over 6'4", and the mostly short (sub-6') white players who were the best athletes when they were 12 are now too slow and untalented to compete with the big city schools. In the meantime, wandering the halls of that high school are dozens of talented athletes and boys above 6'4" who are capable of embarassing their varsity classmates on the basketball court. They're the same guys the 7th grade coach wouldn't even consider, who have blossomed into talented athletes in other sports.

The big city schools dominate these days, because they're full of black athletes who dream of playing for the NBA. The coaches at those schools find success much easier, given their pick of hundreds of boys who believe that basketball is their only hope for escaping poverty.

And then, what really killed basketball in Indiana was the move to class basketball. A bunch of misguided administrators decided it wasn't fair to put little schools like 1954 state champs Milan on the court with mega schools from Indy, so they broke up the single-class tournament in favor of a class system. And the famous "Hoosier Hysteria", the long-standing tournament that inspired people from all over the country, ceased to exist.

So where is the next Larry Bird? Not in Indiana. Not anywhere in the United States. He probably got cut from his 7th grade team 3 years ago and plays football instead. Besides, he and his buddies decided back in the 7th grade that basketball was a black man's sport, and there's no future in trying to play the sport. Where the playground courts when I was growing up were always full of kids playing basketball, sadly today they're all sitting empty, with the nets removed presumably so nobody will steal them.

None of this is racist, it's just pointing out the true facts of how the sport has been wrecked over the past 20 years by well-meaning but ignorant people that created this system. Nobody can blame young black boys for giving everything they have to the sport, although I wish someone could get through to them that the NBA is NOT the only way out of poverty and convince them to put some of that basketball energy into science and math.

I miss the days when I could enter a packed arena to see the Sectional Championship game, which might pit little Podunk HS against Mega HS. And everybody on the court is playing their hearts out, especially the seniors who know this is probably their last chance for basketball glory. All that is gone, with the tournament games playing to gyms less than half full with parents and some interested students.

Too bad nobody else seems to see what I see.

Sports Withdrawal

This time of year I begin to experience withdrawal from my primary addiction - sports.

What about baseball? You may ask, but I completely quit paying attention to MLB after the last strike, and never returned. And I no longer miss the sport. It started as a general disgust over the fact that both sides were merely fighting over control of the gazillion dollars generated by the sport. The owners and players both decided to have a showdown to try to gain the power to control the larger slice of the pie. The bald and obvious battle for power and wealth turned my stomach, and I decided I would never again be able to watch a major league game again without being reminded of how everyone involved in the sport took me and all of the fans who generated that wealth for granted.

Sure, the sports I still follow, NFL and NBA, are probably not that much different. But those sports, aside from the half-season lockout in the NFL several years ago, haven't lost an entire season in such power plays.

Did anybody notice that the NHL missed their entire season this year? I barely noticed, and suspect the same was true for many others. The NHL should take a lesson from baseball, but of course that's not happening. There aren't any NHL teams nearby, and the sport doesn't translate well on TV. You have to be there in person to get the full effect of a hockey game, which can be lots of fun. But for me, it's more fun to see the minor league hockey games, which are relatively close, cost a fraction of the cost of an NHL game, and are more fun to attend anyway.

So recently there was the controversial decision by the NBA to set the age limit for rookies at 19. That effectively means that prospects have to sit out a year after high school or go to college for at least a year before they can join the NBA. There have been some very vocal opponents of the policy who call it racist and an unfair restriction.

It is true that the NBA didn't make many friends among the NCAA basketball coaches and fans when they began to allow teams to draft players straight out of high school. Baseball's been doing that forever, so why not basketball?

What I'm wondering is, which is more racist - the idea that players should at least be given one year of post-high school education before trying to make the jump to the NBA, or that (black) players who aren't college material shouldn't be forced into a college anyway for a year. Maybe it's just me, but I think the second is the racist attitude.

How many of the 18-year-olds drafted by the NBA last week will never make an NBA roster? How many might get to sit on the bench for a couple of years before they're unceremoniously dumped on the street? Most of them. The players in the class of LeBron James, Kevin Garnett, Jermaine O'Neal, etc. are the exceptions. The vast majority of those players coming out of high school will be back on the street, with no education, no skills, and most likely a ton of personal baggage. Were they well served by those who gave them their "shot" at fame and fortune before they were physically and emotionally prepared?

Then there's the whole "system" of development in the basketball world, which I think is the worst of any sport. But I'll hold off on that part for today.

Independence Day

OK, I took the survey:



So finishing up a big project today felt kind of good. The work is complete, everything went pretty well, and I get to take a few days off. Then, hopefully, on to the next project. What I need to do is work on soliciting my own direct contract so I can escape from the low rates and slow paying clutches of the old software company.


I'm unaware of any specific plans for the holiday weekend, other than some time at the JC fair Saturday night. Too bad I'm the only one in my family who enjoys county fairs. Let's see if I can get Chris on the Tilt-a-Whirl (he hates it). I enjoy looking at all the animals and projects, walking through the commercial booths, and stuffing down that great "fair food".


So at the right hourly rate, which I won't put here but is a bargain compared to the rates charged by the company I subcontract with, it would be my dream to work 3 days a week indefinitely at a place within driving distance, getting maybe a week off every quarter on average. That's perfect, enough work to keep busy and interested and financially OK, along with enough time off to have a life outside of business. Some say if you can dream it, you can make it happen - OK, that's my dream for right now. Let's make it happen.


Two hundred and twenty-nine years ago, our great big nation was born here in the new world. A grand experiment in a new system of government was begun which enabled the nation to grow into the most prosperous and powerful country in the world. Now there are forces arrayed against this country from both within and without that seek to destroy either the nation itself or its government by and for the people.


This Independence Day, I hope everyone takes some time to think about the legacy of the place we live and resolve to do just a little bit over the next year to help restore and strengthen those things that made it great.

Happy 4th!

Oh to be Young and in Love

There's no explaining how much I'm enjoying the observation of my boys as they begin to discover the joys and pains of "love". Now aside from Nick's blog and what Tim occasionally lets slip, I can't claim to be very well tuned into the trials and tribulations of their respective dating lives, but what little I can pick up warms me inside with fond memories of younger days long past. Even Chris, just rising to the eighth grade, has begun to notice those unfathomable creatures known as girls.

I used to hope they would confide in me and ask my advice, but that's a foolish notion. What could ol' Dad know about such things? They might be surprised.

Times do seem to have changed since I came of age in the 70's. My whole approach at the time was to try to date lots of different women without getting too involved too quickly with any single one. That happened for two basic reasons: First, most of my friends had similar attitudes, except perhaps those who had trouble finding a date. Second, my very first girlfriend broke my heart, and I didn't want to go through that kind of pain again.

So for awhile I was a sort of serial dater. These days a young reader might read into that statement an assumption that I was, umm, having "carnal knowledge" of each of my serial dates. That would not be accurate. In fact, there were a couple of cases where the girl I happened to be with on a first date "came on" way too strong, and I would simply end it then and there. Not to suggest I was pure as the driven snow in those days, but I at least had some standards and restraint (though as a parent today, I would look back and say I wasn't nearly restrained enough).

Is there any tidbit of advice I could give to my sons and their peers today about the whole pursuit of the perfect woman?

Just this:
First get it through your skull - there is no "soulmate", no perfect match, no woman who will "complete you", and no "happily ever after". If you are expecting a woman to take responsibility for your happiness, you're already doomed. No wonder we've got such a high divorce rate, because those are completely unrealistic ideals.

Compatibility is what you seek. It's the only thing that gives a relationship a chance. Take it from me, if you find great chemistry with a woman, that chemistry by itself does not a relationship sustain. Not that it isn't a good start, but there also must be shared values, beliefs and philosophies, and the two of you find yourselves "on the same page" when it comes to the important things - lifestyle, children, faith and religion, etc.

Don't be in a hurry to settle. Lots of people begin to view things as a version of musical chairs, fearing that if they wait too long to choose a mate, the music will stop and they'll be left standing alone with everyone else paired up. I've known far too many people like that personally, and their marriages are all disastrous. Be patient and wait not only for the right match, but wait until you've had enough life experience to know more about who you are and what you want from life. Then it will be easier to find a partner with whom you can share, while willing to help her realize what she's looking for as well.

Have fun! I think this is the most important message. I had a wonderful time with many of the girls I dated, and don't regret a moment (or maybe I regret a couple of moments, hmmm). Rather than obsessing over the Miss-amour-du-jour, whether she's right for you, how she really feels, is she cheating on you, and all that unnecessary angst, just have fun and enjoy her company. Focus dating on the one you are with at the moment, and make it your mission while together to find out as much about her as you possibly can. Find her funny stories, share experiences, stay positive, abandon all moodiness or manupulative emotion, and just have fun!

Oh yeah, and be sure to share your stories with Dad - he gets a big kick out of them!

Monday full of Hope

After a headache weekend, the new week started off on a hopeful foot. Again, I can't get in to any details whatsoever, but there have been positive events in my case that give hope.

It's frustrating on the other hand that the company I'm contracting through has reorganized once again, and lost my invoices adding up to a pretty significant amount. So to get paid, I basically have to recreate all the paperwork and rebill them, all because they decided they didn't need the clerical person that was handling billings from contractors like myself. So nobody took over the job function. It reminds me of why I quit them in the first place - the company is just incompetent. I hear they're planning to go public, and I for one will not be investing.

But what's really trying the hardest to break down my hopeful mood is the idiot Supreme Court. They just ruled that the Ten Commandments must be removed from courthouses across the country. What Constitutional principle do they cite? A non-existent one they like to call a "wall of separation between church and state". Not only is that nowhere in the constitution, but it was even taken out of context from an old letter written by Thomas Jefferson.

So has anybody ever taken even a basic class that studies Law? Does anybody remember where our legal system came from? That's right, the Judeo-Christian philosophy, which has at it's core the Ten Commandments! Has anybody else studied American history? Can any reasonable unedited reading of history find any desire by the founding fathers to remove all references to Christianity from public discourse? Absolutely the opposite.

The founders were for the opposite of what these judges are espousing - freedom of religion. The intended freedom was that the government could not take a single brand of Christianity, for example, Methodism, and then tell everyone, "You are now a Methodist, and 10% of your earnings will be deducted every week and given to the government-run American Methodist Church". They were overwhelmingly faithful Christians themselves, and clearly stated the primacy of God over this young nation.

Not to mention that the court just decided that Eminent Domain can be exercised by local governments for any purpose they deem proper. So now we no longer have any protection from our government taking our property at will for any purpose they dream up, as long as they do it under "Eminent Domain". It means that the government can walk up and evict you from your home simply because they or someone influencing (say, "bribing") them finds it desirable.

Do average people really support these rulings? How can anyone with half a brain argue that either of these rulings are appropriate? Small wonder the greatest battle of our time will be over who gets appointed to that court over the next 5-10 years.

Oops, looks like I got carried away again. Hope is still present despite stupid courts, corrupt politicians, incompetent companies, uneducated morons, evil drug dealers and child abusers, etc. As long as a few decent and intelligent people remain, there is hope.

Life is a Game of Telephone

Yes, that's it. I have figured it out. Life is basically just a gigantic game of telephone.

At least that's what we called the game when I was a kid. Did you ever play?

The game starts with person #1, who receives a message. They whisper the message to person #2. Person #2 whispers it to person #3, and so on, and so on, until it gets to the last person in the group. The bigger the group the more fun the game, because when all the whispering is over, the last person to get the message is asked to tell everyone what it was.

And of course, by the time it gets to the last person in the group, the message is nearly unrecognizable from the original. Therefore my discovery, that life is just a series of games of telephone.

Today I had an easy week, with only 2 days at my client and a couple of days free. Or I thought they would be free. Until I got back into the office and started receiving a flurry of emails and phone calls from different people in the company I'm working with. Everyone's in varying stages of concern, anger, panic, and lots of other emotions because of their perception of a new problem that popped up.

It was a problem, no question about it. And one that needs to be addressed quickly, for sure. But there's a great cyclone of activity around the emergence of this problem that demonstrates my telephone thesis wonderfully. It is a very manageable problem that can and will be resolved quickly. But almost everybody involved has a different perception about the problem, including who, what, where, when, and why.

Somebody thought somebody else was in charge of this thing. Another person believed that there was no problem at all, that this particular thing was working exactly as it should. The person responsible for fixing the problem had an emergency and can't fix it, which panicked two or three other people, who became chicken littles and ran around telling everyone "The sky is falling!". Everybody else is suddenly occupied in CYA and finger-pointing activities, because they're panicked that they will lose the game of musical chairs this great game of telephone has suggested. Last person to speak is left standing to take all the blame.

And guess who gets to calm everyone down, figure out exactly what the problem is, and see to it getting fixed. Me, of course. Partly because I foolishly thought I could get a couple of days free from the place and things could move along smoothly without me, just until Monday. When will I learn?

Sort of reminds me of the country right now. Kind of the same game of telephone, with one phone colored red and the other blue. Everybody's picked their favorite color and only listens to that phone, which of course conveys messages nearly opposite those of the opposing colored phone. By the time the listener gets the message on their blue or red phone, it's been filtered and interpreted and spun beyond recognition from the actual story. Want truth? Find somebody who's rejected both phones and is finding the truth on his own. But of course, nobody wants to hear what this wiser person has to say, because his message doesn't square with that of their red or blue phone.

I believe that today's beautiful sunny day could be called stormy and raining by, say, the blue telephone people, and everyone listening to the blue telephone would take it as gospel fact. They wouldn't even bother going outside to see for themselves; why if the blue telephone says it's raining, then it's raining. If someone with a red telephone says "It's not raining, it's sunny!", that person would be labeled an evil liar, because isn't everyone with a red telephone an evil liar? If someone with no telephone just looks outside and says "It's not raining, it's sunny!", well, that one's just a crackpot, never mind what he says.

I also believe that our education system is mostly about handing out the blue telephones to every student. "Don't try to figure things out for yourselves, just listen to the blue telephone because it's always right" is the message of our secondary schools and universities. "And if you see anybody with a red telephone, do everything in your power to destroy it before it destroys us!". Red telephones are banned, especially in the universities, and students too willing to brandish their red phones in public are subject to harrassment and possible expulsion.

Just check out today's biggest news stories, and if you're willing for just a moment to hang up your red or blue telephone and take a look outside (or inside your brain, if you have one), maybe, just maybe, you'll understand what I'm talking about.

Story Time

It has been quite awhile since the post with the story of my vivid dream and the hint that there might be another story. Maybe today's a good day to tell that other story.

This is a much more recent story about another dream. It was very different from the first dream, which just involved me and my unique experience with issues of life, death, and whether there is anything on the other side. On the other hand, after writing that last sentence, maybe it is more similar than different.

Anyway, it's hard to believe all this happened over a year ago. It seems like yesterday. My mother had been battling illness for a year or more, spending most of the previous 6 months between hospitals and rehabilitation centers.

She had gathered just enough strength recently to decide with Dad that it was time to return home to northern Indiana from Florida. She was escorted to the plane in Florida by Dad and my sister and brother-in-law for the trip to Indianapolis, where I met her and took her home.

Seeing her in the Indy airport approaching in the wheelchair, I was suddenly struck by how frail and sickly she looked. Maybe I had been in denial, but it didn't really hit me just how much her health had declined until I saw her being wheeled out from the concourse.

Chris and I took her home and cared for her as best we could until Dad arrived by car. Even though she was terribly weak and required near-constant care, I knew Mom was happy to be home. Chris and I then returned to our home in southern Indiana, promising to return to visit whenever we could.

Mom was able to stay home with Dad's care for perhaps a couple of weeks, before she took a turn for the worse and had to be hospitalized. The pattern continued that had been building over the past several months; she got stabilized in the hospital and seemed to be gradually improving in strength, then sent to a rehabilitation center to get the physical therapy she needed to hopefully allow her to return home again.

I drove north to visit her again in the rehab center, which was a poorly run facility that neglected Mom terribly. If it hadn't been for Dad's regular presence and pressure on the staff to do their jobs, the poor treatment itself in that facility alone might have hastened her passing. Places like that should be shut down - but that's getting off the subject.

During that visit at the rehab center, I arrived to find my parents in the physical therapy room. Mom was trying mightily to walk with only the aid of one of those aluminum walkers. She was too weak. My heart broke as she began to cry and apologize to me for being unable to do her walking exercises. But I did my best to hide my emotions and tried to be positive and supportive, telling her she just needed a little more time to get stronger.

Returning home again, I privately began to prepare myself for what was beginning to look like a real possibility for the first time - losing my mother. But, I buried myself in work and tried to proceed with life as usual.

Then it was a lazy Sunday afternoon. We were home, and there wasn't anything special going on, so I indulged in a nap. And dreamed.

Of course, it is common to dream when napping, perhaps even more than during nightly sleep. But this afternoon brought a truly unique dream. If the dream was generated by my own sub-conscious brain, I am very impressed by my brain's prescience, wisdom and compassion.

The dream started with me walking into the Intensive Care ward at the Goshen Hospital. I've been there before, so I recognized the floor. I walked over to my mother's room there, which was the last room along the wall to the left of the nurse's station. In the Intensive Care ward, glass sliding doors are used to give the staff visibility to the patients in the ward, with curtains used when privacy is needed.

Looking in, I saw my mother in the bed, surrounded by my dad, sister, uncle (her brother), and her nurse. She didn't look good, and those around her bed were somber. The door was closed, and noone looked up to see me or let me in, which upset me.

Then my mother turned her head and recognized me from her hospital bed. She smiled, and began to sit up, slowly and painfully. Somehow she was able to rise from her bed and walk over to me at the sliding glass doors completely unnoticed by the family members and nurse still gathered around.

She reached for me, and grabbed my hands in both of hers, somehow through the closed glass door, pulling me closer. She adjusted her hold and I felt her warm hands grasp my forearms while I held hers. She spoke to me with a smile, and a rush of emotions welled up in me of a mix of love, sadness, lonelinesss, and hope.

Suddenly she release me and transformed into a little girl of maybe 9 or 10 years old. She had her suddenly long, dark brown hair tied back into a pony tail, and her freckles became more prominent across her nose. She began laughing and joyfully skipping around the hospital room.

I awoke then, and was immediately worried that I could not recall the words she spoke to me in the dream. But I took two things from the experience; first, that my mother would die soon, and second, that she would be much more than OK.

About two weeks later, I was at her bedside as she passed away in the last room along the left wall in Intensive Care, along with my father, sister, uncle, and nurse (the same nurse from my dream). My other sister was missing from the scene, as in the dream, because she and her husband were out of the country in Peru.

Understand that, at the time of my dream, my mother was not in Intensive Care, I had never met the nurse, had not seen my uncle in several years, and could not explain why my other sister was not present.

Scientific or psychological explanations for this particular dream are fine. Maybe someone could even convince me somehow that there's a good explanation for the accuracy of my dream, it doesn't matter. Whatever the source, it brought me a great deal of comfort during a very difficult time. I have confidence that for my mother at least, heaven is returning to herself as a small child, able to run and jump and skip without a care, and especially without pain. And for that, I am grateful.

Here Come Da Judge

Remember Laugh-In? If you're too young, I understand it's running on some cable channels now. I never fully understood the joke ('Here come da judge'), but vaguely understood it to have something to do with prosecution of drug users.

So those who were in on that joke in the 60's now make up the "establishment" in the Democratic party. They still love peace, sex, drugs, and rock 'n roll. Maybe that partially helps explain the whole confusing senate machinations around voting to confirm or reject Bush's judicial nominations.

We could argue about what value there is in the filibuster rules themselves, which have been a senate tradition for so long. But anybody who's been out there claiming the other party is shredding the constitution, whether by threatening to eliminate filibusters or actually using them is lying. There's no other way to say it. Very simply, there is no constitutional right to filibuster. It's a longstanding senate tradition that allows the minority party the ability to block legislation they find egregious.

So to compound the whole constitutional lie, the Democrats went a step further with a whopper of a lie about the right to filibuster judicial nominations being part of the longstanding senate tradition while suggesting it was enshrined in the constitution. Whoa, time for a reality check.

First of all, the Republican leadership was not even suggesting removing the filibuster from normal legislative debate; just judicial nominees. And they correctly pointed out that judicial nominees have never before been filibustered until the Democrats began doing it when they lost the majority in the senate. And it's become clear to me that the reason Democrats were filibustering the Bush judges was not at all about qualifications and only peripherally about the judges' philosophy. It's simply a power play to make sure they deny Bush the ability to nominate any judges at the highest levels from the Appellate courts to the Supreme Court.

Then the other lie is buried inside a truth. Democrats like to point out that they've allowed approvals on the vast majority of nominations brought to the senate from the president. It's a meaningless statement that's purpose is to mislead - that large majority of confirmed judges were for minor court appointments that have little bearing on what sort of high court decisions we will see over the rest of our lifetimes.

So was Priscilla Owen an extremist right-wing activist nominee? Well, if your view of the world is so skewed as to call a track record of outstanding abilities to interpret and apply the law extremist, maybe so. But the reality in Priscilla Owen's case is that she's one of most experienced and qualified judges in the country. What disqualifies her from appointment in the eyes of Democrats is that she apparently has expressed views against partial-birth abortion and in favor of parental notification of abortions for minor children. And she appears to be a church-going Christian (gasp!). The other disqualification might be simply that she's from Texas.

Democrats say that the Republicans blocked lots of Bill Clinton's nominees, and that's true. However, the way they blocked them was with their votes, not with filibusters. And of course the majority party controls the chair of the judicial committee, and they can just simply hold back a nomination from review in committee. Would the Democrats like to try to suggest that no Reagan or Bush Sr. appointees got tabled in committee when it was chaired by a Dem?

So which party has been more successful at getting their own "extreme" judges appointed to the bench? I think we only need to look back at Robert Bork and Ruth Bader-Ginsberg. Bork is a brilliant jurist who happened to have a conservative constitutional viewpoint. His nomination got huge media play and so much spin that the casual observer may have thought his appointment to the supreme court was tantamount to a Nazi regime taking power. In stark contrast, Clinton's appointment of Ruth Bader-Ginsberg, a radical leftist ACLU lawyer, sailed through with little scrutiny and not a little cheerleading from the news media.

Honestly, which is more extreme? Believing that the US Constitution set the clear direction for our free republic and all laws must be held up to its standards, or believing that the Constitution doesn't matter and a judge's own feelings about what is just and right should drive their decisions? Need I state the obvious conclusion I've reached, that if we appoint a majority of judges with the second opinion, we will lose our republic to a tyrannical socialist-communist elite government? I believe we're already almost there.

The compromise deal reached by the gang of 14 so-called "moderates" that allowed Priscilla Owen to get to the floor for a vote probably hasn't actually solved the problem. There are plenty of indications that the deal has probably already fallen through:

• As soon as the deal was made Harry Reid stated that they will continue to filibuster. Apparently, the wording that says they reserve the right to filibuster only the "most extreme" nominees he's going to feel free to interpret once again as pretty much every judge Bush sends for advice and consent.
• They've already engaged the filibuster on Bolton, the UN nominee. So it's business as usual less than a week after the deal.
• Gleeful Democratic leaders gloated about their victory in the compromise, effectively hanging the 7 Republicans who signed onto the deal by painting them as stupid and naive losers. Reminds me of what they did to Bush Sr. on the tax increase deal - they made the deal, immediately reneged on their part of the bargain, and gleefully watched as their efforts enraged the republican base and cleared the way for the election of Bill Clinton.
  

What is disheartening for me is seeing that only 2 Democrats had the courage to defy their party leadership to vote for Owens. That shows that the majority of senators have lost their ability to make their own decisions and have placed their party's political aspirations for power above doing the right thing for their country.

Republicans are guilty too, just look at the messes with healthcare, trade and immigration that neither party is willing to tackle in a meaningful way. One might say with some credence that this judicial stuff is just a distraction from what's really important. However, at least one Supreme Court nominee is likely this year, and that nominee will represent what philosophy will dominate the court for the next generation. So it is true that both parties understand how critical this fight is to the future of the nation.

As do I.

Mainstream? You gotta be kidding!

We don't have any premium channels at home, and I rarely see them while on the road working. But last week was an exception. I was staying in a hotel room with HBO included on the TV. One evening while flipping through the channels, I stumbled on some sort of wierd talk show run by a smirking pile of doo-doo named Bill Maher.

He had three guests, which I soon learned were Al Franken, Gore Vidal, and a young woman I didn't know and never really caught her name. It only took me about 5 seconds to figure out that these guys were talking politics from an extreme left-wing approach. So I thought I'd hang in for awhile just to see what the goofball lefties were up to recently.

It wasn't pleasant. Before long, I wanted to twist Maher's chicken neck with my left hand while pummeling the never-changing smirk into a bloody clown grin with my right. He and his pals (the female excluded) weren't just going off on W, which I've gotten very used to from that crowd. But they were going after me. Personally. Apparently I represent everything they hate in America.

What do they hate about me? Well, just that I'm a nominal Republicans to begin with. But I am also a member of a "Red State", Christian, and haven't yet swallowed the whole mythology about Iraq being harmless and the war just about making Haliburton rich.

Apparently I, and people just like me, think poor people should starve and be denied any medical treatment. That gays should be rounded up and soundy beaten. That it's perfectly fine for corporate fat cats to keep getting richer while their companies walk away from employee pensions and healthcare commitments. That the air and water can be polluted until the planet no longer supports life as long as it helps the same corporate fat cats. That other fat cats in the investment community should be able to raid social security to line their own pockets. That I am a stupid and unsophisticated bumpkin that goes along with whatever W and his talk-radio cronies tell me. And finally, that I should immediately be packed up and sent over to fight in Iraq along with the Bush twins, because if enough of us are sent over there and get blown up by insurgents, Bill and his friends can finally take over and make things right.

They have never met me or anyone like me. They have no idea what I think about the topics and issues. They cannot begin to understand that I'm upset with W about many things he's doing, but supported him enthusiastically in the last election because the alternative was so obviously and horribly worse.

Maher did most of the talking, and the audience of what I can only assume to be a handpicked bunch of New Yorkers hooted, hollered, and applauded every invective from Bill and his cronies. Franken didn't say much, but mostly sat and tried to match Maher's smirk and making the occasional comment about Halliburton, as if just stating the name of that company was enough to inspire derision. Vidal said the least, leaning on his cane like Budda and making the occasional witty Bush put-down to the audience's noisy delight. I wondered if the unknown female was the token moderate in the group, as she said very little but said nothing approaching the inflammatory drivel being spewed by the jerks surrounding her.

Understand that I'm not crude or vulgar, so I refuse to put the above messages into their own nauseating parlance. But here was a lesson in what the group of people commonly referred to as "liberal elites" are really like.

What shocked and dismayed me was the statement Maher eventually made, that he and his buddies, as well as the Democratic party, represented the mainstream of America. That nobody with any brains could possibly oppose the right-minded ideals of their beloved party. Please. Since when is partial-birth abortion and abortions for 12-year-old girls without parental consent mainstream? Since when is removing any religious expression from the public and forcing churches to hire, marry, and place gays in leadership positions mainstream? When did socialism and communism become mainstream? When did it become mainstream to agitate against your own forces and support the enemy during wartime? Is mainstream thought in America now defined by PETA, MoveOn.org, the Gay/Lesbian Alliance, Jesse Jackson, and Howard Dean? What is mainstream about opening borders to everybody who wants to come across and bankrupt our country's social services?

It's even scarier because I discovered on Sunday from Howard Dean that the whole "mainstream" argument is now officially part of the official message of the Democratic party. Apparently the Democrat's new message for the masses is "We're mainstream, and the Republicans are extremists!" The reason that's scary is because the last people on earth I want defining what is "mainstream" are Bill Maher, Gore Vidal, Al Franken, and Howard Dean.

I now fully believe that these guys have an agenda based on fooling as many people as they can to regain power. Because how else could we end up governed by a group of anti-religious anti-capitalist anti-life anti-freedom elitist thugs, but that they succeed in so obscuring the truth about their agenda that people actually vote for them because they heard the Democrats "hold the same views as me"?

Want to be President?

I've got the secret formula for anybody that wants to be president in 2008. It doesn't matter if you are Republican or Democrat, all you have to do is separate yourself from the idiots inhabiting Washington DC and simply express common-sense solutions to the problems no other politician is talking about.

Here's the very simple platform that will win you more voters than anybody, if you can just break through with the message.

Fix Illegal Immigration: Beef up border security and simply get the government to look at the documentation submitted by employees when they go to work for a company. See a fake social security card or green card, go get the illegal and deport him/her. Catch a company employing illegals "off the books" - hit them hard with huge fines. It really can work.

Fix Offshoring and Trade Deficit: First of all, push legislation that forces domestic companies to pay any employee they lay off to replace with a foreign worker or contracting firm a minimum 1 year's severance at full salary, plus pay their benefits for 18 months. Voila, no more jobs going overseas!
Then, get tough on trade policy. If China wants to import their goods, they have to have their own markets open to ours. If they keep blocking those efforts, impose tarriffs and hold up their products at the ports. Boom, our trade imbalance starts to rebalance.

Fix Healthcare: Push a realistic plan that helps save healthcare costs and makes it available to the uninsured for a reasonable cost. If you've read my healthcare-related stuff here, you already know what I think needs to be done.

Fix Social Security: This one is the proverbial third rail - touch it and die. However, there is a gathering storm there that has to be addressed somehow. I think the way to fix it is to attack it from multiple angles, including rewarding people for contributing more to IRA's and 401K's, incenting employers to offer more and better pension plans, opposing trends like the current famous United Airlines problem where companies are allowed to walk away from their pension plans, etc. Basically, there are lots of great opportunities to turn this third rail problem into a positive for a presidential candidate.

Be friendly to people of faith: Express opposition to the stupidity of the ACLU in their attempt to remove all expression of religion from society by supporting free and open expression of any religion anywhere, as long as the religion doesn't preach horrible stuff like murder, suicide, rape, robbery, etc. Profess a practical and level-headed point of view on the big moral issues of the day, like abortion and gay marriage. Couching the abortion issue in terms of making the goal that we should remove any reason for a woman to abort would not allow anybody to call you names without looking evil themselves. Use my argument about Gay Marriage, that it's discriminatory against other family units! Leave marriage to the churches and between a man and a woman, but let everybody else have whatever living arrangements they like as long as it's not illegal or contributes to some disease epidemic. (Oops, AIDS might be a problem there).

Those are the major things, I think. Any takers? I would support anybody willing to run on this platform, regardless with what party they associate. I just fear that our candidates are already bought and paid for, and I'm really scared that we're going to get Hillary in 2008. Heaven help us.

Here Comes Summer

Tim's done next Thursday and Nick's done in about 2 weeks, and the summer is here. I'm expecting a good summer, and hope to have time to do more fun stuff outdoors with the kids.

I really want to drop some pounds and have a little more energy to do the things I like. Got to find that balance between working just hard enough to keep the income where I need it but leaving free time to play.

It's very good that both Nick & Tim have decent jobs this summer. It helps both from the perspective that they're taking responsibility for what they can do for their college financing and not choosing to lay around all summer expecting Mom & Dad to take care of everything.

I'm wrapping up the project up in the Chicago area, and so far don't know what my next assignment might be. On one hand, I don't mind it if I have a week or two lag between projects, but on the other I don't want to be idle for a month. It definitely is time to get the new Corporation organized and do some strategic planning. I'd like to get some other people working and providing revenue for the corporation very soon to take some of the pressure off of me to get out there and bill as many hours as possible. Gotta find that first commission salesperson to work the Web business first.

The feedback from this client has been very good, so I hope to get another letter to continue to build my reference base. It's also time to build my consulting website as soon as I get some time.

Sounds like a busy summer after all.

Nothing New

Even though there isn't anything terribly earthshaking on my mind, blogger still beckons me to write something. So, how about a collection of random ideas?

The Pacers did a nice job fighting through to win the series against Boston, but then turned around and laid an egg in their first game of round 2 against Detroit. They looked tired and sluggish last night. But can they recover a-la Boston and still win the series? It seems doubtful.

I can't believe they are still arguing about the whole filibuster business in the Senate over confirmation of judges. I've tried to figure out why the Democrats are blocking Bush's judges, and although they claim it's because they are "radical", the reality is that they are the opposite. Perhaps the most egregious sin of any of them is if they're Christians. So there are two very simple conclusions; 1. They're paranoid about Bush's judges maybe overturning Roe v. Wade, and 2. They just want to block Bush from appointing any high-court judges in hopes that their own president can send in their own in a few years.

And both sides argue points that are basically correct but sound contradictory. When the Democrats say they are simply trying to protect an age-old practice that helps the minority wield influence in important matters, what they are leaving out is that the filibuster has never been used to block judicial nominees before. When the Republicans say there is no precedent for filibustering judicial nominees, what they are leaving out is that they blocked some of Clinton's judges by simply keeping them from getting out of committee.

Here's what I think. Go ahead and keep the filibuster. But make the Democrats use it if they object to a particular judge so vociferously. Give the filibustering senator the floor for as long as he/she wants, but make it clear that there will be no breaks. When the filibustering senator has to pee, gets tired, or loses voice, their time is over and the vote is next. No business will be brought to the Senate floor until the judge being presented is voted on.

Very simple. I have no clue why they don't just go ahead and turn over the floor to the filibusters until it runs its course.

I miss football. Arena football doesn't do it for me. I'm ready for the Colts, Notre Dame, even IU to get started again.

Congratulate me. I just became President of Cornerstone One, Inc. Now, if that company ever makes a name for itself, that might just mean something.

My high school class reunion (yes, it's #30) is this summer. I think I'll skip it this year. Once a decade is plenty.

Harmless Secrets

Went to the doc today for the first time in years because I've been ill with what seems like a cold for over a week and haven't had more than 4-5 hours of sleep since Sunday. I'm surprised I'm functioning as well as I am under the circumstances, and I worked 10-hour days right on through the illness. But the doctor visit was bad news. I've suspected what is now confirmed; I'm killing myself slowly with bad habits, and if I don't get serious about some changes the misery might only get worse. Time to say a tearful goodbye to my favorite bad habits.

Anyway, I don't have any real big outrages gnawing at me today, so I thought just for fun I would post some harmless secrets about myself. These are secrets that might make me look a little stupid but are otherwise harmless, and I'm at the stage where it doesn't matter much if people want to laugh at me. So here goes.

I actually like watching American Idol. Well, this year, anyway. Last year I thought there wasn't a single contestant who deserved to be there. But I really like this group. And the final two should be Bo and Carrie, with Carrie taking it all. Bo's unique and will be a star, and Carrie's awesome.

I actually enjoyed the Disco years in the 70's. I know people make fun of those times and the stupid looking clothing of the era, but I actually had a lot of fun back then. I even still enjoy hearing a Barry Manilow song now and then. But the one thing I never did like was the leisure suit - good riddance on that bad idea.

I thought I was a Democrat until I entered the working world. Dad was one, and virtually all my teachers and professors were, so the only Republican I ever knew growing up was my mother. And I just thought it was funny how mom & dad make sure to cancel out each others' votes every election day. Later, as a working stiff, I found out that Jimmy Carter was an absolute idiot, unbelievably naive and unable to effectively manage Iran, the energy crisis, and our country's crashing economy. He's the poster child for what happens when the Democrats control everything. So I became a Republican when I voted for Ronald Reagan. Worked out pretty well for me, and as far as I can tell for the rest of the country and the world as well. Now it seems like the Democrats have become the Socialist/Communist party and the Republicans have become just like the Democrats were in the 60's. Very sad.

I'm a converted Catholic, even though the rest of the male members of my extended family are pastors in the Brethren Church. What I've mostly learned is that different Christian sects are too hung up on their differences during a time when the entire religion is under attack from secular and Islamic interests. I've learned that Catholics and Brethren, for example, have far more theology in common than in conflict. There's also a lot of misunderstanding on both sides about what the others' beliefs really mean. Christians in general should stop arguing about who's going to heaven and hell and focus more on our common faith, or I foresee the real Christian faith and values being removed from our culture entirely.

I once took a long walk off a short pier. Yes, dumb ol' me during a lake vacation walked out to the lakefront early in the morning to enjoy the sunrise. I strolled out onto the pier and lost track of how far I had walked before stepping down ... to a nice cold dunking in the lake.

When I was, hmm, in college maybe (?), my parents discovered an unopened six-pack of beer hidden in the basement. They wondered for years where it came from, how long it had been there, etc. OK, time to come clean. I put it there. When I was still in High School or maybe just graduated, a friend had asked me to buy him a six pack of 3.2 beer when I was making a trip to Ohio. (At that time, 3.2 reduced-alcohol beer was available to kids between 18-21.) So I did, and when I got home, I hid the beer in the basement and called the friend to come and get it. Well, he never came over to get it, and I completely forgot it was there. So now you have it - the mystery of the six-pack solved.

In Jr. High, I raced a friend, Tim, back to the school entrance door at the end of our lunch period. I think I just edged him at the finish, but he would probably remember it the other way around. Anyway, the entry door had reinforced glass panels on either side, and I arrived at the one on the right at the end of a full sprint. Bracing myself on the frame with my hands, my momentum brought my right knee up into the glass, which promptly and spectacularly shattered. I was amazed first that I was able to shatter the reinforced glass - you know, the kind that you can see the honeycombed pattern of wire running through. But also I was amazed that it broke with seemingly very little force and my knee wasn't bruised or cut at all. Also amazed was the assistant principle who observed the whole thing. Then for the final amazing event, I received no punishment other than an admonishment to "slow down" next time.

In High School, the Assistant Principal (not the same as the Jr. High guy of course) pulled me out of an English class and walked me to the office. I was a little bit concerned, but mostly just curious about why they would want me in the office. It wasn't long before I found out the purpose of the trip - I was accused of destroying school property. The high school was getting old, and showing its age. It was overdue for some major renovation and remodeling, with old creaky stairs and banisters and drafty, dry-rotted windows. Anyway, someone had been trying to show off his strength by shaking loose the banister at the top of the third floor stairwell, which broke off and fell all the way to the first floor. And a rumor had gone back to the office that the perpetrator was me.

Well, I immediately understood what had happened. And even though I wasn't sure, I had a pretty good idea already of the identity of the actual culprit. It fit very well that he and his friends would consider it highly comical to hang the offense on a model student like myself, who had never come close to trouble in school (at least never been caught). But I just truthfully told the Assistant Principal his account was the first I had heard of the incident, and I not only was not responsible, but was nowhere near that stairwell at the time. He gave me a lecture anyway about destroying school property and endangering other students, but sent me back to class with some obvious disappointment that he had not extracted the confession he hoped for. Oh, and before school let out that day, I had confirmed that the person I suspected was indeed the one responsible. But of course, it's bad form in High School to report on someone, so I kept it to myself. Dad came home that evening and questioned me about it, as he received a call during the day. I appreciated very much that he completely accepted my response and did not show the slightest indication of anything but complete belief in my innocence.

There are plenty more harmless secrets, but I need to get some work done so that's it for today. I hope anyone stumbling on these stories found them somewhat entertaining, and permission is granted to have your laughs at my expense.